Super crazy how time flies, but at the same time... THIS PROCESS IS NEVER ENDING! I don't remember eating a single sugar this week except for 6-8 sour cream and onion pringles chips over the course of 2 days and like half a cup of chocolate milk (not my breakfast drink).
I didn't work out yesterday at all because Lindsey came over and it was the first time I saw her in like a month? She came by on Easter Monday but that's the last time I saw her. I tried on a Kate Spade dress yesterday and it was going so well until the chest... Damn these things. Can someone tell my chest that we're losing weight please? Because it's not listening to me!
Next week is my musical which means I will be in rehearsals from 5-9:30pm every. Single. Day. And I wouldn't have it any other way but you know what that means? Week 9 probably won't really happen...And by that I mean I won't have any time to work out. I can try doing it during my spares but...I'm not going to punish myself. So, unless I actually have a successful week, week 9 will be postponed until May 11... But I'm going to try my best regardless! Prom and my birthday party are coming quickly.
I just want to be thin. Is that too much to ask?
Today on my walk home from school, I saw a chubbier young girl stop and look at her reflection in the window of a store. She sucked in her stomach, looking at herself hopelessly, grabbed her stomach sadly, and then kept walking.
I've been there, I'm still there, and it made me really sad to see her doing that and knowing the EXACT thoughts going through her mind. I know people do that, but to actually witness it in person from a complete stranger was kind of heartbreaking.
This is why I'm doing this. I don't want to do that to myself any more. And I wonder...Will I still do that to myself when I'm thin? Will I still hate myself? Will I be satisfied? Most people would say no I won't. But let's see for myself!
My birthday dress came in the mail this week. The 14 was a bit too big, and the 12 would have been too small so I'm in between sizes which is GREAT! -_- I wonder what dress size I'll be when I'm thin...Will I ever be a 4? Or will I be a 6? Or an 8? What if I'm a 2? Only one way to find out. I've come too far to give up now, no matter how tempting that is.
I'm looking forward to that period of time where all my clothes are too big for me but there's no point of taking in my clothes... That'll be fun. Wow this is a lot of writing for basically nothing. haha!
Oh. P.s. My trampoline broke...again -_- There goes that super fantastic exercise. I WAS ABLE TO JUMP FOR 11 MINUTES STRAIGHT THIS WEEK!
Exercise Log
- Saturday - Planks, weights, thigh challenge
- Sunday- Planks, weights, thigh challenge
- Monday- 45 minute walk home, pilates, weights, trampoline, thigh challenge
- Tuesday- Pilates, planks, weights, trampoline, thigh challenge,
- Wednesday- walk home, pilates, planks, weights, thigh challenge, trampoline (It might have broken on Tuesday... I can't remember)
- Thursday- Nothing...
- Friday- Thigh challenge, pilates, walk home, planks, weights
Planks Log
April 25
Full plank
1:45
Teaser 1:50
Dolphin
1:33
Wall sit
1:51
April 26
Full plank
1:45
Teaser 1:53
Dolphin
1:33
Wall sit
2:04
April 27
Nothing
April 28
Teaser 1:54
Full plank
1:45
Wall sit
2:10
Dolphin
1:36
April 29
Full plank
1:45
Dolphin
1:36
Teaser 1:54
Wall sit
2:10
April 30
Nothing
May 1
Teaser:
1:58
Dolphin
1:36
Full plank
1:45
Wall sit 2:18
2 Month Achievements!
- I went from being able to hold a full plank for 20 seconds or less to 1:45 seconds continuously. That means I have reached my goal of 60 seconds, 1:30 seconds, and 1:45 seconds. Next goal: 1:55
- I went from being able to hold a dolphin plank for 20 seconds or less to being able to hold it for 1:36 seconds. This means I've reached my goal of 60 seconds and 1:30 seconds. Next goal: 1:45
- I went from barely being able to jump on the trampoline for 3:30 seconds straight to over 11 minutes straight. (Too bad I can't keep going for now...I'll probably have to build up my endurance again...)
- My eating habits went from having junk food for snack every day after school + Junk food in bed before I went to sleep + whatever else I felt like having and drinking throughout the day day, to going days on end without having any excess sugar.
- I went from not being able to fit into my jeans, to them being a bit too big for me.
Sporty is proud I'm sure ;)
I will be doing planks (almost) every day next week because there's NO WAY I want to go back down to less than 1:45. Wish me luck guys! I don't know when the next time will be when we talk.
Wish it. Dream it. DO IT!
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